tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57662942011-04-21T12:25:23.286-07:00DrunkablogThe online journal of an alcoholic trying to recoverAlcoholichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15930170692513650155noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5766294.post-1062648417706714392003-09-03T21:06:00.000-07:002003-09-03T21:06:57.716-07:00Fucking Frozen........This window has been open for the last several hours, as I tour the internet for intereting time wasting crap. I just lost my job two days ago. I have about 15 days sobriety after going out for one night in a foreign country. Before that my last drink was in 98 and last "smoke" was in 2001.
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<br />I am frozen.
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<br />Petrefied.
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<br />I need to move forward and find work.
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<br />My wife will leave me.
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<br />I will lose my family.
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<br />That is what the disease is waiting for.
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<br />I am fucking afraid of the self fulfilling prophecy.
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<br />Obsess about the worst possible outcome 24/7...
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<br />And it somehow comes true.
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<br />I wish I could turn it around to positive thinking / positive results.
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<br />But that will never happen.
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<br />Not to me anyways.
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<br />Fuck.
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<br />I am not sure what kind of an intro this is,
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<br />But this is my place to vent, and say what is on my mind.
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<br />More will be revealed as time passes.
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<br />First time blogging really...
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<br />Please feel free to send me an e-mail if you are reading this.
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<br />I am going to call my sponsor now, and go home and tell my wife I no longer have a job.
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<br />It is sometimes hard to breathe.
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